I know

I know that we went to a water park today.  The kind with death defying slides, a lazy river, snacks, a wave pool, a surfing area, and a height requirement. 

I know that we were hoping Tallulah was finally tall enough to go on all the rides.  I know that Tallulah is all in for this sort of thing, and wants to go a millions times and has no fear.

But I know that I didnt really think she was tall enough.  Or heavy enough.

I know that there were death defying slides.

I know that my aunt died in November.  

I know that I can't believe she is gone.

 I know that put her picture by the piano today and saw books that she gave the girls today.  I know we were talking about her on the way to the water park. I know annabelle begged us to stop becuase it was too sad.

I know that I saw Tallulah wave at me before she went down. I saw her and her friend wave at me.

I know that I was three tubes behind her.

I know that her tube got stuck when it came out of the Shute. I was watching, to cheer her on.  

I know her friend fell off.  But was still on the slide.

I know that Tallulah fell off, but fell over the slide.  I know because I saw.  I know what I saw. 

I know I can run fast.

I know I can scream loud.

 I know that when I saw her sitting up, surrounded by life guards and good Samaritans, she was probably ok.

I know she was crying hard.  I know her head looked really weird.

I know she asked if the other girl was ok, between her sobs.

I know that some people on earth right now, are living saints.  

I know my friends would take care of annabelle. 

I know the paramedics wanted to take Tallulah to a hospital nearby.

I know I trust texas childrens more.

I know I can drive really fast. 

I know that I can drive on the shoulder in an emergency.

I don't know if I believe in guardian angels.

I know that Tallulah survived a six to seven foot drop off a slide with velocity, landed on concrete and is just bruised up with a concussion and a severe hematoma. 

 I know mostly trust doctors. 

I know my husband can be a calm guiding force when he wants to be.

I know Tallulah is in her bed, sleeping peacefully.  

I know that Tallulah survived. 

But I don't know how.